We can make some plans instead

It is good to get reminders, as I have these last few better going months: I should never forget that this is what I so much wished for myself. These whirlwinds of ordinary life and love - and not so ordinary at all. We are pilgrims here, citizens of two countries, and the one so much closer to us is the one not achievable. There is so much value in this attempt, in these views that it is not rational, not reasonable to regret one's crazy courage of leaping into all this uncleanness.